Tuesday, March 27, 2007
I just had another cell core meeting last night....this is the third so far.It really is challenging for me to be in the core this sem.Unlike Gen's core,Peter's core is really challenging....well for me that is.The core which consist of Peter,Vips,Fenny and i had decided that each of us were to disciple at least 1 person from cell group.Pressure to the max!!Mainly bcos i'm the only inexperience one in the core group.Vip's a leader,Peter's a leader,Fenny's a leader.....and me....sumone that is walking in their shadows while trying to keep up.Regarding the discipling issue......i dont think i can do it.My foundations as a christian is not as strong as any of the three of them,i've definitely no experience whatsoever,Their bible knowledge far exceeds mine,and they all walk strongly with the lord.And me....i'm struggling with sins every minute...i still swear often ...even when i try my best to stop....i skip classes on a daily basis,i've shallow bible knowledge...my quiet times are rare..heck i can be of no good example for anyone..what more disciple a person.It makes me wonder....what if i disciple wrongly..u noe...show them the wrong stuff and the likes...my lifestyle isnt exactly a good model.....and i definitely do not want to stumble my brothers in their walk with the lord.Sigh!!.........i wish an angel would appear now and tell what to do...or at least straighten out my life first before i start discipling ppl.Really......i need a miracle to pull this off.I tried explaining my way out but to no avail.I noe i have to rely on God's strength and not my own....but i still feel uneasy,still feel that its far-fetched..still think they got the wrong guy.Melvin, Looking at the God Side of things.
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