Saturday, July 22, 2006
Just recently.....i was picturing my life a year ago,and realise i that there are areas that i've definitely mangage to change ,but there also unpleassant areas that are yet to be changed.Why did i bring this up thing up...well....i just pulled out my knife at a f@#king racist guy 3 days ago.I deeply regretted that action till this day.I din get into any trouble for doing that,but i could have......i seriously could have been in deep shit!Well the whole thing started when i was walking back from Karawara with Jack,Derek and Pei ren.On the way back,there were two "ang moh" cyclist(a guy and a girl) cycling from the opposite direction.Naturally we gave way to them,but the male cyclist just has to yell" Just f#$king knock them down,this f#$king chinese should go back to thier f$%king country"at our ears. Hey!! i gave u a f@#king way,i wasnt even f23king blocking ur way,neither was Jack,derek or Pei ren blocking thier path.So what i replied him with a simple word"Joker".Guess what he did next,that asshol thought he was so tough and ""man"" enough to throw his bike aside and challenge me.By all means...if his mindset was that chinese ppl are afraid of him,i'll Gladly....i repeat i'll Gladly remove that mindset from him.So what i did next(which i regretted) was too take out my switchblade.That asshole stop advancing the moment he saw the swithblade...and all he could do was swear from where he was standing.Me on the other hand wasnt thinking straight anymore(i noe..im stupid sumtimes).I started walking to his direction, but luckily enough Jack and he's body mass hold me down.Seeing this the bloody F@#ker started advancing towards me while swearing like he never swore before.Then when i manage to free myself from Jack's grip ,the coward idiot stop and retreated again.Jack(luckily enuf) probably realises that things might get out of hand if i remain there,then decided to drag me out of the area.So with pei ren and derek pushing from behind and jack using his huge body mass , drag me until the f#$king cowards was out of side before releasing me and talking sum sense into my head.Mind you,even when the two f#$king cowards was out of sight..i could still hear their bloody swearing.Minutes later, Jack told me they were the same guys that fought with my housemates month ago.My housemate(not mentioning names) was luckier than me as he manage to punch the guy in the face.His case was slightly diff from mine.In his case,they threw their bike at my housemate which of course pissed him off.Ohhh i also forgot to mention that my housemate was from singapore and he has been through ns.But we both agree we shouldnt have done what we had done,Both of us could have been depoted back to our respective country just for doing what we did.Ppl and friends here says i have very good patience,but when sumtings hits me on the wrong side, i guess i could blow as well.I mean..i've seen calm ppl like william,gabriel, loy bong and the likes loose their temper as well.I'm not giving excuses for what i've done.I noe im wrong, but i cant help but realise that in that moment,i never stop to think before i act,i just did what i did......and thats scary.....ppl who dont think b4 they act would just mess up their on life.I've seen it happen,and i don wan it to happen to me
Melvin, Looking at the God Side of things.
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